Writing takes a lot of dedication guys. It takes hard work and motivation. It takes the ability to work through procrastination which lets face it I have yet to master. I don't know how many times I have thought to myself "Oh I'll post tomorrow but that tomorrow turns into next week then next month and then you know the rest. No new content.I haven't' posted in a while and this one is going to be a little different than the previous ones. It is an introductory of sorts to what I hope to accomplish going forward.
I have been going through a pre-mid-life crisis recently. I've been trying to figure out what exactly I want to accomplish in my life and what will give me fulfillment. I know what my career goal is and what I want to do for the rest of my life but it is going to take me a long time to get there. And I have been asking myself what do I plan to do until then? Do I plan to just go to work? Work my “9-5” go home and pay bills and hope I have enough money to last until the next paycheck? Do I want to be jealous of everyone else and their lives? Their experiences? Their ability see the world? Their ability to truly live and love? Or, am I going to realize that instead wallowing in my self pity and feeding my internal envy monster I can get up off my feet and make it happen. I realized the only thing stopping me from living the way I wanted was me and hard work that I really wasn't willing to do until now. For the first time in my life this life has seemed worth living because I realized that I actually do have control.
It got me thinking what do I want to accomplish? I love to write. I have always loved to write ever since I learned to read. I was eight years old the first time I tried writing a book and I remember the excitement and the feeling of being able to put pencil to paper and create a world of your own. I've lost that feeling. I lost it in the pressure to write a novel for the wrong reasons. I lost it in a job that drained my spirit. I lost it after season upon season of depression and feeling like I couldn't accomplish anything. I lost it in procrastination and confusion and rewriting my story until it has changed so much and almost caused me to quit altogether. But I found it again. I found it when I began to enjoy reading again. I found it when I began to slowly let people in. I found it when I stopped letting everyone else define me and my life and my choices. I found it when I remembered how much I loved telling stories when I realized that writing is always going to be a part of my life.
I had to ask my self why I was writing. I am not writing to become famous or for my book to be the next big movie franchise. Sure that would be great but with that goal come so much stress and you lose sight along the way. I write because I love it. I love making something out of nothing. I love being able to express myself. For those of you that know me when I get upset or excited or nervous and I can't talk and when I do it just doesn't make sense. I am more honest when I write and more open. I also have a huge imagination that never turns off. I need a way to channel all of this and blogging is perfect. This was my first blog and I will always remember it fondly but its time for me to grow. And the next step of growth for me is to move my blog and start fresh. Writing is so important to me I have decided to take it more seriously.
The title I have chosen for my new blog is Once upon a mermaid:Writing, reading and other musings. Here is the link: New Blog I plan for it to be up and running by next week if not the week after. It's going be about writing obviously but not just about my book. It will have writing topics, book reviews, favorite authors, new books coming out etc. I also want to get involved with top 5 Wednesday if that is something I am able to be a part of. The only times I will mention my books are for status updates such as finishing a draft or the publishing process. This isn't the end guys its an amazing, beautiful and exciting beginning. Who knows what the future has in store. I do know that I want all of you along with me. This will be my last post on this page. All new content will be found on my new blog at the link above I will also provide it on my blogs main page. Thank you so much for being patient and sticking with me during this inconsistent time. Have a great week I will see you soon!
I have been going through a pre-mid-life crisis recently. I've been trying to figure out what exactly I want to accomplish in my life and what will give me fulfillment. I know what my career goal is and what I want to do for the rest of my life but it is going to take me a long time to get there. And I have been asking myself what do I plan to do until then? Do I plan to just go to work? Work my “9-5” go home and pay bills and hope I have enough money to last until the next paycheck? Do I want to be jealous of everyone else and their lives? Their experiences? Their ability see the world? Their ability to truly live and love? Or, am I going to realize that instead wallowing in my self pity and feeding my internal envy monster I can get up off my feet and make it happen. I realized the only thing stopping me from living the way I wanted was me and hard work that I really wasn't willing to do until now. For the first time in my life this life has seemed worth living because I realized that I actually do have control.
It got me thinking what do I want to accomplish? I love to write. I have always loved to write ever since I learned to read. I was eight years old the first time I tried writing a book and I remember the excitement and the feeling of being able to put pencil to paper and create a world of your own. I've lost that feeling. I lost it in the pressure to write a novel for the wrong reasons. I lost it in a job that drained my spirit. I lost it after season upon season of depression and feeling like I couldn't accomplish anything. I lost it in procrastination and confusion and rewriting my story until it has changed so much and almost caused me to quit altogether. But I found it again. I found it when I began to enjoy reading again. I found it when I began to slowly let people in. I found it when I stopped letting everyone else define me and my life and my choices. I found it when I remembered how much I loved telling stories when I realized that writing is always going to be a part of my life.
I had to ask my self why I was writing. I am not writing to become famous or for my book to be the next big movie franchise. Sure that would be great but with that goal come so much stress and you lose sight along the way. I write because I love it. I love making something out of nothing. I love being able to express myself. For those of you that know me when I get upset or excited or nervous and I can't talk and when I do it just doesn't make sense. I am more honest when I write and more open. I also have a huge imagination that never turns off. I need a way to channel all of this and blogging is perfect. This was my first blog and I will always remember it fondly but its time for me to grow. And the next step of growth for me is to move my blog and start fresh. Writing is so important to me I have decided to take it more seriously.
The title I have chosen for my new blog is Once upon a mermaid:Writing, reading and other musings. Here is the link: New Blog I plan for it to be up and running by next week if not the week after. It's going be about writing obviously but not just about my book. It will have writing topics, book reviews, favorite authors, new books coming out etc. I also want to get involved with top 5 Wednesday if that is something I am able to be a part of. The only times I will mention my books are for status updates such as finishing a draft or the publishing process. This isn't the end guys its an amazing, beautiful and exciting beginning. Who knows what the future has in store. I do know that I want all of you along with me. This will be my last post on this page. All new content will be found on my new blog at the link above I will also provide it on my blogs main page. Thank you so much for being patient and sticking with me during this inconsistent time. Have a great week I will see you soon!
